I get a sort of feverish glow and my asshole starts feeling real good

And then I start thinking about getting fucked and sucking cock

And I know straight guys like it because they cum to my pix too

And would Love to slide their cock up my ass and play with my feet

and then maybe suck my cock too

You know it's true ... want to see more?

Take me in your arms ?

So I'm talking to this young woman the other day and she wants to do 69 with a girl and says

O you're Bi kewl

Insant wood, get the O'My plain out ummmm; so we're talking about threesomes, swinging &c

and I'm getting that nice Pan like feverish horniness (why they call it that you know?)

all of which she's never done and the conversation inevitably resolves to THEE question

- 'so like ... what do YOU do with guys' and then it's like

Ewwwwwww that's not right.

So the late 50s early 60s Swinging sexual revolution stalled on the next step.

If the soft swap casually occurs and one guy's wife sucks the other guy's cock;

 and the guys jerk off while the girls do 69 and to other assorted tricks, then what's the difference

 if guys do the same thing?

O it's like ... ah ... really hot for girls, but ... ah ... not alright for guys. Why?

Isn't there some girls reading this that get off on watching Gay porn or get Ready for Love,

for some Home-made Sin, at the mere thought of guys sucking cock, snowballin', schtick like that?

Why should it be any different?

       The Long Awaited Next Post !!

And it's going to be about stroking my cock and girls refusing to cooperate.

But one of the things I like about Xanga is that there are girls on here that are willing to express their lust, desires and horniness as much as some men are in fact in some cases even more so;

 but the thing that really excites me and which I honor and respect more than anything is the fact that they are doing it for free.

What really upsets me are girls that come after you, come on to you, tell you that you're special and then not only ignore you but then go off with other guys to your exclusion. I guess it's their last ditch attempt at Power, control, feeling wanted and desired. But who the fuck has time to chase women except worthless guys that never can think of anything else to do!

It's just so much better to have someone to interact with, hopefully someone who is at least as good in looks and body as you are but of course what happens - it appears-  is that  guys like me have to settle for someone far less - I hope that's not truly the case and that I'm being cynical - but it certainly appears to me that most of the woman if not all of those who either accost me or whom I'm attracted to are looking for sugar daddies. Great help me get off until you find one and then we can even continue thereafter. 

I even tell women, that it doesn't matter to me how many men they want or have as long as they can still take me in their arms and give me all the Love I need and make me feel as good as I want -- I'm easy BTW.

I Love girls that have that touch ... and face it guys it takes practice, they're going to have other cocks besides yours so appreciate them screaming and hollering and giving all of their Love to others. So what, like I said if they can still do that to me, afterwards, why should I care? In fact it's going to be better because they're going to bring back variety which makes it all even better

So why shoot me down am I that bad?

So it's gotta be a Power trip, because they still go out of their way to make me jealous by exclusion. Almost every woman if not every woman I've ever had, has been with another guy(s) at the same time and I either knew then or found out after. So why should it matter? Every now and then when I'm feeling Love for a woman and see another woman I'd fuck if I had the chance and then forget about it because it was just a fuck. I can appreciate that working two ways, so what's the problem?

So why exclude me? That's what hurts. And why hurt me? What did I do? Honor and respect you to let you run free and still have me when you want? Something is very twisted there and I wish someone would explain this to me, because I don't understand it, I want to learn and in the meantime it makes me want to give up on girls altogether.

So how difficult could it be for some babe to contact me as such even while she's at work or fully clothed while I'm totally nude and her old man is in the next room sucking a beer and watching the game. Ask me about my cock, if I'm working on a load for her and whatever you want to say. If that interests you hit me.

I'm serious and respectful, just want to have some fun instead of going out and being promiscuous but who knows if we click if that's what you want

I guess I have to get one of those computer cameras, some girls like to see the cock and balls live. Make some recommendations. I'm really pissed that Yahoo nor AIM recognizes my Panasonic Pro so let me know

 I decided I'm not going to do any more posts here until I get some comments on this one

Do you think this picture would be better if I just let my cock and balls lay over my thigh?

For a long time not a single response to that query; but then someone said it would ruin the illusion. Cool.

So I finally relented and my hits picked up from drops to intermittent dribbles. 

Yes censorship like fascism does work and that's why Conservatives and their whoreish suck ass Xangites et al, use and deploy it. Two words, Election 2006, end of story. And now that that's over they at least saved the Senate for Naxi Konservative KKK social parasites to use and deny to the public ... Butt

THE REAL STORY -- I came to My Space in the Autumn Years of my life for networking in terms of the purposes stated here (annihilation of the Conservative Social Order) and to plug my presently banned fm radio show as explained in my other blogs (scroll down) see also my space profile page.

Unfortunately the few persons that were interested didn't know much and didn't have sufficient time or willingness to learn, check it out http://blog.myspace.com/blazintommyd

I met one woman whom I was immediately attracted to, didn't qute know why, but intuitively felt there was something very good there but she was never around and with all of this bleak prospective http://blog.myspace.com/blazintommyd (see posts for the end of July 2006)

So I was about to give up on the whole thing and as a last ditch attempt, I started surfing profiles and came across this absolutely extraordinary looking woman who was clearly the most beautiful woman in the world (for me anyway) and a voice in my head said "Tommy, this is her, this is the one"

So I left a nice complement thinking  yeah right tommy you've got hopes and suddenly this electronic hand grabbed me by the pants and a voice from nowhere ... oh wait no there it is, it's, it's, typed in a message from her?!!

It said hey wait a minute I want to be friends!!

My dick went from cherub like head resting on my thigh to so hard it feels like the head is going to blow off ... throbbing with pre-ejaculate cooling the red hot feverish frenum with the whole kit raising my balls stretching the skin on my thighs and opening up my asshole. An experience not at all unpleasant and veritably screaming for the application of O'My Plain -- all of this in about 3 seconds (do I dare depict?).

Why not they have me rated explicit and it's all over xPeeps. Few and I mean very few girls do this to me. It's just something inexplainable.

And we got pretty friendly over time exchanging pet talk which gets my cock in an even more dramatic state than that depicted above

But something happened which wrecked all of this - which I never really figured out (but think it's sort of solidifying into creation lately) the following is from a series of pictures I did for her, which she liked quite a lot:

I left out a few, which I was going to include if I got some respect from my viewers.

Now this other woman who was never around suddenly comes onto the scene and is suddenly around quite regular. In some ways it seemed we clicked better. Still the mere thought of even having cyber feelings for another almost made me cry. I could see the first, almost hear her talk see her move, feel her and when I feel that way about someone anything that violates that image/idyll, sets off flags and alarms everywhere; but what could I do she left me veritably abandoned.

All of this (just the material facts, Love) was explained to the second who was admittedly fair in her response claiming she herself is the worst girlfriend, an asshole and is like a self centered man; but she was so much fun to chat with that hours passed like minutes, so ... I failed to heed her warnings.

Well, for the time there was a 3 way conflict and in hind site MAYBE it was that very conflict, the first sensed ... there's someone else or actually knowing it because I had explained to the first my "involvment" with the second which she seemed to snear at a little.

Being the Don Quixote longing for Romantic Love, these are some of the reclines I did for the second:

Of these I've left out literally hundreds. I worshiped and adored her.

She frustrated me so, but then I would hear from her ...

It had to have been a Love spell listen to

"The Thrill is Gone" by B.B. King. 

But this isn't true. My dick would drool for her (at the time I wrote this ) if she sent me an email that just said hi. All of this is like the Waite Rider Two of Pentacles the juggler, tracing the infinity symbol. I even wondered if it would be possible to have both. 

So the first woman is totally beautiful, and I mean a drop dead gorgeous Goddess beauty

I had dreams and musings of her before I ever saw her picture.

She Loves that I dress, is romantic, likes me; doesn't like body hair

and Loves the sweet talk.

She's the first person I ever sent pictures of my cock to. In fact She is the only person who has ever seen a close up picture of my fully erect cock. But ala s that has now changed. I fell in Love with her, if that is possible on line; and could actually picture her as my wife, living and working together. But something happened. She is really the sweetest thing, like cumming and melting chocolate thirst quenched, dreaming all at once.

Now she has told me we are but friends.

The other one, who I wanted to Love, fuck and melt into so badly my cock ached deep into my heart and soul, had been easier to communicate with and we used to spend hours and hours of time together on line but she told me that the idea of us making Love made her sick because she thinks of me as a girlie boi and claims to Love hairy masculine stereotypes, isn't into other girls or anal.

How fucking boring and frigid is that!  Pfffffff.

I mean anyone that truly Loves fucking know it's inevitably going to end up that way probably never had a man that knows how to stay to pleasure the woman for as much and as long as she desires for that makes the best climax especially when she wants it

BOTH are lunachicks (Cancerians)

Why am I attracted to Cancerian girls? My brother always told me Tommy! These girls you hang out with ... in case you haven't noticed? What? Noticed what??

Well anyway before I get to the point in all this, the whole thing is weird because although i can picture living, working &c with the first as described above, I used to picture myself having a really good time with the second just doing simple things like watching a film or sitting together and happiness just happening not having to do anything to make that happen except just be me and it getting better all the time. THAT is precious and I used to think I'd do anything in life to be able to have that forever and maybe I still would if there was any hope. On the other hand if the first also showed me that ... but in a way she has too by being a littlel minx coming to my cyber lap curled up in a fetal position warming her hands while I kiss her lovely dark hair. But alas ...

Life as the Tzaddi is difficult - see here in re The Ace of Diamonds  http://www.myspace.com/blazintommyd

So for either one? I felt so much Love for them they could have as many Lovers as they want and I'd still feel the same. As long as the woman could take me into her arms and give me all of her love and make me feel as good as any man could, why should I care if she wants other men. Superfluous. The difference, apparently, was that the Second wanted/wants me to find people to fuck in real life so it wouldn't interfere with the hours we spent together on line

The first is the 7 of clubs - according to "Our Place in the Cards" by Edith L. Randall we're supposed to be famous friends and I'm good for her in terms of business but as Lovers she would confuse me too much. Oh yeah, and makes me nervous. 

But she had insisted that isn't so becasue she's at the cusp of Cancer, now we've started communicating again but she says she's playing hard to get

I think, no I'm sure, she's the only person whose beauty intimidates me. 

The second is the 9 of clubs. I'm supposed to be the best card in the deck for her and my Love for her is irresistible. If I can handle the fact that she buys things she doesn't need and is a little free with her charms "it could be very good for [me]"

Hmmmm 

Maybe I do need yet another person(s) I can click with on line to help me get off or at least deliver me from these veritable Sirens and provide a fresh perspective. 

The other thing is that I do tantric masturbation so cybering or whatever for me is not the usual just make me cum as a biological function, it's romantic, spiritual even religious (I did a recent my space blog on it). So the first seems like she is the more capable in that regard having written a fabulous piece regarding the Chakras and the entire system of Kundalini and Magick but has been unforthcumming in this regard

She claims that she too is doomed in Love

The second? That would be fabulous because we've chatted so much and I feel thoroughly comfortable with her but apparently for her it's not the same? 

Me broken hearted from the first

Me just about any time I think about the second

So anyway, I need words on this. And I thank my real Xangites friends Sir Jester, Icon &c

But as far as this (from original post) I want to see if any of you have similar effect on my cock as these do/did. that experiment never happened

Now I've found another Goddess 

But I went too far too soon and maybe scared her. Maybe she just wants a cyber buddy that she feels is suitable in terms of looks, intelligence, likes to show and is cool

She is all I could ever want in that or any regard.

I also have at least two very nice sexy friends from cherry tap. Join here using this link I'll get points and extra privileges so I can add you to my family http://www.lostcherry.com/join.php?friend=309239

Thoroughly beautiful and pretty groovy too.

To my friend here born on the same day 

LOVE