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I'm maybe a month maybe less away from becoming a full blown Homo because I have had it with girls.

[April 20th - the day of the month where I devote my sperm to my Goddess Love and pray to her as others Pray to God; none dare allege that she is unworthy of my Love and adoration]

[April 22nd - my sacrifice was offered and communion made - and still she was pissy as hell. Perhaps she is so high and mightly she is merely untainable -- which would leave the Princess and Poetress]

It's just too long to explain but essentially they all think that pussy is some fucking material possession that man cannot live without and can therefore demand money, fealty, jealousy - all sorts of shit in exchange for it.

[April 22nd - I suspect Princess and Poetress are different - I feel quite certain they are ... if not ...]

[April 20th - it's not too long to explain. Woman know their rightful place without the bullshit of Patriarchs; and are in a constant revolt to re-attain that position. This is difficult for them because (1) knowledge is censored by programming and (2) they don't have test(osterone) so they have to succeed with mental power in a society ruled by ad baculum force administered by men. The foregoing is the consequential result. But I don't deserve this. I demand equality with my Queen. Perhaps she has become drunk by her conquest and has to learn magnanimity. Yes I think that's what it is. I'm sure of it].

So there are two women I like. [4/20/08 - One is a Princess the other a Poetress who drinks freely as she will the libations of the Moon. How dare a woman be a Poet to attain as she will by method attainable only to man, which in itself wheedles with temptations and little cherubims about ears and neck, beckoning and demanding my Love. Dazzling me in clouds of ephemeral bliss, as a veritable female Orpheus. Goddess Darling Love is above them, she is absolute; but is a jealous Goddess. This hides from her own consciousness her true attributes and powers. Rather than opening the Gates wide to my heaven and bliss and her complete and thorough knowledge, recoursed from the Moon to her very soul, I remain apart from her, hurt, and chagrined. So i told her this morning I might have to take and plant the seeds of my soul elsewhere, and that if this occured, then it would be the greatest sin imagineable].

[April 7th - One remains the other decided this was too much trouble and probably no more money. April 20th - a lament of bitterness, dull, shallow and superficial]

So why am I posting this? Just as a general fuck you to women? [April 20th - because you are generally weak, choose to play by man rule and to let you know that I'm not afraid to suck a cock, take a cock in my asshole, make out with a man or do whatever the fuck I have to put pussy out of my life forever !! If I cannot be at least equal in heaven then I shall reign in Hell - a Hell devoid of the open Gates. Nowhere to plant my Wand of Will, lest it be in my own hand to face the fate of Saturn, consuming his own littlel men http://doarcodavelha.blogspot.com/2008/04/homunculus-of-spermists.html .

Saturn you nasty littlel beast you

http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.curiousexpeditions.org/Rubens_saturn.jpg&imgrefurl=http://curiousexpeditions.org/%3Fp%3D40&h=1065&w=500&sz=130&hl=en&start=2&um=1&tbnid=xu0VS162ea31vM:&tbnh=150&tbnw=70&prev=/images%3Fq%3DSaturn%2Beats%2Bchildren%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26rlz%3D1T4RNWE_en___US220%26sa%3DN

So I shall revolt, eternal, against your failure, until you submit !!

To realign the polarities to free the conscious mind ... that the collective intelligence, blazoned across the Cosmos, may flow like the affluent of the Moon ... into the conscious mind of Mankind]

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[April 7th - still blank on this one]

In fact, I think there ought to be a State and/or island or something where no pussy is allowed just cock so men can just relax and live a normal life without the stress of pay me, give me money, get me this, take me here I have to go to Europe, don't fucking talk like that to me ok now romance me. where the fuck is the hard on?? !!

[April 20th - this is how desperately low our society has fallen]

And all the rest of the shit bitching women think they're entitled to

I hope all of you cunt out there with those those desires? End up with little insecure fat bald headed men in business suits that drives you carzy with their insecurities and that every man you want sucks my cock, fucks me in the ass or vice versa

[April 22nd - you ladies would faint if you saw all of the man hits I'm getting: horne husbands, engaged fiances, eager boyfriends - the garden variety fag> He'll have nothing to do with me. Why they're blowing (only?) a fuse ?It's all straight men on Homo Holiday]

[April 17th - 10 days ago I said "yep pretty much still feeling like this and probably will for the remainder of my existence" every now and then a nice woman posts a comment on My Space but I'm still wary]

[April 20th - my pissyness subsides in anticipation of efficacy of my sacrificial offereing to my Goddess]

[April 8th - she Loves my ass and I Love hers but she'll never admit it and maybe I won't admit it as much as she likes but I tried everything, within reason. Maybe both of us don't know. That's why I ought to just go where she is and fuck her. Then she could decide. If she likes me then I'll stay as long as she wants.

She's the only woman I know that will fit in my arms, that I could feel her being; that her smile and giggle will give me a rush, that sound you feel in your ears and then becomes overwhelming until metled chocolate is Love and you're dripping with it like candy kisses]

[April 17th] - the aforesaid is too much trouble. I paid in $5000.00. Acted above and beyond any conceivable duty or obligation on my part and she's done nothing but insult me and piss me off. So from here on out it's up to her. Yeah yeah I know blond it's actually up to me to find something else ... la de dah ... and in actuality this is the catch and this is what I hate more than anything else in this fucked up Heteroseuxal Patriarchy Horseshit ... I Do Not Need ... to "get laid" and can't get over the fact that people still think of this in terms of necessity.

http://www.healthy.net/collinge/sex.htm

If I fucked someone right now, other than her, it would be a meaningless act of revenge and cruelty. I'd be doing exactly the same thing as her and to her that would justify her doing the same as me

So to hell with it. I lost my case at the US Supreme Court - they denied my petition for cert - and I have until May 6th to file a petition for rehearing

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moody
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Month: April 2008

It Goes Without Saying

How I Long For

Failure or Freedom

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Alive in April 2008

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