I received another lambastation of cruelty from the McJudge so the Appellate Court will start their clock soon 

I get my court work done - it's the way it has to be - I will announce when it's done so if I do come online before it's out of shear hormonal weaknesses

I have this system of cards I Live by I followed it for over 30 years and it's pretty accurate my card is the Ace of Diamonds - to make a long story short I'm a career person but i can be a Love person too but it's easier being for the career so men under this card often end up with a "girl in every port" type of life and maybe dovetails the Ladies with his career - e.g., especially if it involves traveling. There are career people and maybe you're one. I get into things deeply and it's almost impossible to find someone that's willing to wait while I get something done or try to understand and then after a while I realized - I don't care - I'm enjoying myself, this is what I want to do, so maybe there isn't just one person maybe because the career is so important one person can't work. I thought for many years that if there was someone that was into the same things I was then we could do things together - in 54 years I met one person like that but that didn't work out either( The 4 year LDR). I am still married but separated. I get along with my wife really well - if I'm not around her much and she accepts it, she has her own life and I never seem to be able to find anyone that would put up with me so why get divorced? I tell that to people and they think I'm crazy but so far it's really the only sort of stable relationship that works for me - we haven't had sex in 9 years and I haven't either because I respect her so much. This is not to say I won't but if I do it will be for Love and it will be with someone special. So as we get older and realize we're all going to die and this is it then it begins to dawn on us that all there really is, is us and we have to do our own thing - when we don't That is what causes anxiety and stress - that's how it is with me anyway

I'm plugging away at my appeal