There is zero encouragement, zero feedback and since I'm not getting paid for this then what is the point?

Part I

I saw this group of black guys professionals that organize gang bangs in NYC.

They had pictures on AFF with some really drop dead gorgeous white women, blonds, redheads, brunettes. I was stroking my cock to the pix and could cum at will, which is really unusual for me just from pix. But the shear idea of these beuatiful women thoroughly abandoning themselves to the utter enjoyment and fulfillment of cock: fucking it, licking it, sucking it, eating the jizz & c &c was thrilling and imparted in me an extraordinary sense of Liberation, I was actually feeling myself as a woman in their place, on their backs on their knees, enjoying dp, cock sucking, one or two cocks, or picturing women I know wondering how I would feel seeing them do that

Apparently husbands take their wives to these guys, - viz., Honey I Love you so much ... kind of like taking a small child on a fun ride

So is this good or bad?  Well I don't particularly like men, I think they're generally assholes, but society has made them that way; but these husbands aren't faggots with littlel dicks or spineless submissives or whatever they're doing this for their women.

Personally, I've seen and known a lot of very nice first class intelligent women that dared fuck like this and then were made to feel guilty about it, by men. Well if you're one of those women please don't be ashamed of fucking like this at all; don't fear that strange and peculiar sense you have from that exprerience it's freedom and liberation - that's why it seems so strange because it is so rare in this society - and if some guy beats up a girl because of that? Then maybe it is time to bring back stripes

Now you know if you're a man that you Love a woman and yet you come on here and jerk off; and no it's not the same as fucking and you would not just fuck any girl: but you know that there are ones that you would fuck but that you would still Love your woman, afterwards. Well it works exactly the same for her except even more so, because biologically, woman can fuck and fuck and fuck and there is no man on earth that could ever keep up with that. Any woman, once let loose (so to speak) well she may need a half dozen big men just to keep her down; so if you think you can ever fulfill that role you might as well forget it; women are just being nice to you digging their nails into those big pecs and biceps smiling and making you smile while you're pumping their pussy and they're pulling on your ass with their back arched sucking your tongue down their throat - imagine if it was your cock !

In that regard woman are far more fabulous then men for being that humble; but if you truly Love a woman it doesn't make any difference who she fucks and how much she Loves it, moans and begs for more, it's just her expression of freedom and Liberation; even if she leaves you but if she would do that by you giving her, free will, then preventing her from doing so is no different than keeping her as a slave or a prisoner.

Now most guys don't think anything of gang banging some girl but they'll treat her like a slut afterwards - O, I Love you I Love you until they cum.

Now these black guys are apparently all professional but according to the several reviews I've read the women like it because it's just no nonsense no strings fucking: like here's your chance to wallow in some big black cock with aggressive men attached thereto and solely intended for that purpose. These guys looked pretty ok too I mean hey I'm not fucking them and they are opposed to bisexuality or doing guys, butt still have nice asses &c not like they were fat and all pimply assed - but we all get like that at times:p.

I used to feel funny about that kind of thing when I was younger but the older I get it just seems like this is really what women want and it almost seems natural. So if guys can do that why not women and why shouldn't they enjoy it just like the guys. I think they should,

The only obstacle I still have is when I'm left out; I'm dealing with the opposition to bisexuality and doing men because there are women that feel repressed by competing with a man as a bottom when other men find the male bottom appealing; but I think that if women have this hang up - and I know of a few - then all I can say to them is I came half way you come half way and deal with it too. It's only fair.

Part II

But who really knows or who can choose what turns them on? There's no formula, really. Like some woman asked me the other day what sort of cock do you like? Tuutti Frutti and Lalapaloosa - who the fuck knows - woman don't. I like seeing guys with nice healthy looking balls with a nice thick substantial cock. Nice color, nice tone, healthy looking; but that doesn't mean anything, really

If I feel like sucking on a cock and i see one that looks pretty ok then it doesn't matter and I think that's pretty much how all women feel too.

So you never know.

What I've learned is from jealous women that want you to remain faithful maybe because they feel -- hey bud there's like 12 guys in this restaurant that I would/could fuck like right here and now; and I don't know if I wanna deal with that? So it's like, let's just remain faithful. The only trouble there is that after while you get numb because what the fuck is the sense of looking? And then you wanna just fuck anyone else just to see if you still can !! So I don't think that's good; it's not for me.

But still the best orgasms for me  are when they are made and devoted to one Goddess, especially if she is real; yet the sort of thing described in Part 1 makes me hot and excited in an altogether different way, more like the former is spiritual and the other is earthly

And really the only problem I have at this stage is if I'm left out

But still in this day and age all of these things are repressed you have to seek them out and find special places to practice and partake in these things; people are secretive about it; hide their identities, so I decided as i have done over the years - just respond to whatever turns you on and go with that. This is a sort of tradeoff  for independence you get a sort of biological function minimally enjoyable and then you want it more and more; whereas with the Goddess I can do one two three orgasm all around the same time once a month with lots of edging in between, with the smaller internal orgasms to satisfy me until the big cum when I can really shoot and the jizz cums screaming out of my cock hole delighting every atomic particle therein: so I guess it's all empirical; the apparent dilemma is one of the things that keeps life interesting and regardless of what anybody tells you, there are no hard and fast rules, you are pretty much free to make up any ones you want, whatever suits your own private Constitution.

Keep an open mind, watch your temper, make a deal to act reasonably with one another, appreciate each other's wants and needs and then ... happy fucking

I complained to xanga yesterday about this

http://www.xanga.com/Private/messageitemthreaded.aspx?mid=13499029&filter=inbox&cid=-1

Now today it says the page cannot be found, what it led to yesterday was a listing of all of the comments I've ever made on all Xanga sites whether they were public OR protected

This page showed up in my footprints as to where Chris came from cec32

I confronted him about this and he claims he has no idea what I'm talking about

Well I feel as though I'm being spied on and I don't like it and no one has come up with any explanation of why or how this happened or how it can be prevented.

I'd like one from Xanga

As well as anyone who might enlighten me

Some guy posted a blog about a Muslim Congressman comparing Bush to Adolf Hitler and 14 comments apparently from the Jewish version of the George Wallace National Youth Alliance jumped all over this guy's shit about the only thing wrong with Hitler is that he killed Jews so you can't compare anyone to him. He is sacred, don't you watch the 20th Century? This is what I wrote which they censored (I also edited here for clarity)

It's too bad that Jews needing Juice to buy protection for Israel had to go along with the Nazi Cold War thing and help create the impression that the only thing wrong with Hitler was that he killed Jews. Hitler was Time Magazine man of the year I think in 1937 and was enormously popular in the US of A particularly amongst Irish Roman Catholics (Google Father Coughlin sometime). It's no accident that George Bush, Richard Nixon, John McCain and innumerable Democratics are like Adolf Hitler because the Democratic-republican singe party monolith chose Hitler as did the British as their alternative to Communism.

- viz., to create a demilitarized zone between the Soviet Union and Germany which Britain perceived as a front against communism

Google Hamilton Fish and the German American Bunds. Neville Chamberlain merely got caught with Hitler getting a bit out of hand much worse than the comparison used by Bush to Saddam Hussein but essentially the same scenario. If you look you'll find that under Adenhauer numerous high level Nazis were returned to the post Woodrow II German government and that Truman imported a number of Nazis as intelligence officers emeritus so to speak - almost all of that info has been obfuscated now by the CIA but if you look you'll find that too.

The US essentially made the decision with Truamn as Fuhrer that the futre is either communism or fascism and truman said if it's going to be fascism it's going to be our fascism. In the meantime the US having run out of gold in around 1929 never solved that problem and put it off  by creating the IMF rebuilding Europe with SDRs and using US Dollars in the form of SDRs for all international Oil settlements through the Cartel Eisenhower created known as OPEC. That being done and the people running the government being akin to 12 year old retards, no one knows how to fix the money muddle at least no one that is allowed in government.

That's what the war in Iraq is about and what it was about against Hitler. The US didn't get involved until Adolf released his world currency plan with European transcations settled in Deutsch Marks - which drove Lenny Spencer nutz (this is why there are Brits today that refuse to be consider European) because everything was settled in Pound Sterling. Similarly, Saddam was going to sell oil to France and Germany in exchange for ECUs. The only thing preventing hyper inflation of the dollar is the excess dollars being soaked up in higher oil prices.

The ECU deal is why they didn't want to participate in the killing at first but you know how that goes you say you're a Homo show us or we rape you anyway -- which is the only reason the US has nuclear weapons. Post (Woodrow Wilson II) Amerika is the progeny of Adolf Hitler and the 3rd Reich. Hitler was the alernative to Communism.

Comparing Bush to Adolf is kind of like holding up a slice of bread and saying "this is bread".

http://www.amiribaraka.com/Somebody.mp3

 If I see you here more than once and you have nothing to say your banned. If you're a guy and want to remain incognito while jerking off to my pix and videos then you're chicken shit and I don't want you around. Admit what you're doing and the same goes for girls post a comment maybe you'll change my mind. Friend's Lock is a dumb innovation almost as bad as blank accounts. It's like going into a nudist camp full clothed and telling people stop ok turn around let me have a look ok get lost. What the fuck is the matter with you? Too much jesus and the National Anthem

No doubt

-ff to and if I get nice comments especially from girls I show you some pictures where my cock is visible but you have to be nice though

Cool huh

>:D

Participatory government does not exist in the US of A and it never did; but that not the problem: the problem is that the Democratic ?republican single party monolith does not believe in the rule of law it believes in mob rule

The entire form of the US government is based on the notion that man is evil and is predisposed to doing wrong, which is also a classically Conservative notion

So that when you practically apply and work through all of these various precepts and ideals, you will find that it like running a computer program: eventually they all crash and have to be amended. Except that modern day Conservatives ?the ones that lost the Civil War - want it to crash; and  don let them kid you they are all Conservatives.

The 1^st and most fundamental principle is not free speech or free expression, it the rule of law; the attempt to ban free speech is merely a symptomatic result of government straying away from the rule of law ?e.g., let have a vote, let lynch the Nigra, how many in favor say aye.

So right off the bat we see the first and foremost product of infant western thought symptomatic medicine

The problem is in how the symptoms are dealt with. If the President for example strays from the rule of law what happens? Is this a high crime or misdemeanor? Where is that written ?e.g., let have a vote, let impeach the President ?an if?he happens ta be a Nigra let lynch m, how many in favor say aye.

In actuality, if the rule of law were adhered to then the form of government would be unimportant. So the form of government we adopted was either in response to known empirical abuse as documented in Montesquieu pirit of the Laws?and/or the presumption or belief that these sorts of things will always happen

So all of these apparently insurmountable problems we hear Congress whining about ?e.g., campaign finance reform - really have absolutely nothing to do with the government or the rule of law, they are the symptomatic results of mob rule ?e.g., let have a vote to see who gonna be dictator. Let listen carefully to determine how clever which little shit is going to be in devising some new national security threat and then wel buy enough voters to ensure his victory: because the truth is, not only do these other little shits not believe in the rule of law they have for the last 62 years found pretence to suspend it. Before Truman crew invented the Cold war, it was Rent Control. Il even supply the US Supreme Court Case on edit to prove it.

So how does this form of government prevent these things from happening? It doesn and thus Central Planning devolves to majority building ?e.g., who going to force people to disclose all private medical and financial information in order to get a driver license on account of rent control? Or get padded down, essentially frisked, having your purse and other private effects rifled through by grubby little fingers in order to get inside a courthouse?

Now in NYS you have to go through all of this shit first at the Country Clerk Office: (1) buy an index number: last I knew $175.00 but Judge Kaye demands a $50,000 a year raise for all Judges and she a gonna sue Eliot herself if he don just imme the fuckin?money?so maybe she raised that fee too ?look Eliot the money for our raise, it right chere !!); (2) A request for judicial intervention: used to be $75.00 last I knew. What really ought to be done is just change the US of A motto from E pluribus Unum to ust gimme the fuckin?money? and (3) Now pay another $50.00 before they even let you get out of the hallway inside a room.

So the monolith needed something big, not just the Gulf of Tonkin: having a US ship attacked by the US, if it was ever attacked at all; and then blaming it on inland rice farmers whom were subsequently destroyed as a US National security threat: probably on behalf of the same folks that made agent orange: but 1^st let have a vote, how many in favor of raping their women and farm animals say Aye. So this time around they had a few volunteers fly an airplane into the world trade center?

Now think about that for a minute. Private property was destroyed and oh yeah people were killed, correct? Do we do away with due process because people still murder? Is that next? It already happened ?/P>

William O. Douglas as an associate Justice of the US Supreme Court authored a number of cases dealing with the rights of pro se litigants and dealt with these in terms of violations of due process and equal protection. The Conservatives didn like it.

You see it far easier for a Judge to gain control over a lawyer than it is a pro se (a pro se litigant is a person who represents themselves); and control is the name of the game.

In terms of controlling the lawyer, he has to argue before the Judge. If the lawyer won  take a dive when the Judge wants the other party to win ?e.g., a large Conservative Party corporation, or more likely, a friend or local government official - then maybe this lawyer is going to have a difficult time winning any cases before this Judge or other Judges that agree on the particular case outcome at hand, thus his career is ruined, he has to relocate, run for office or just knuckle under and submit.

So the plan being executed right now is to undo all of the Douglas decisions dealing with due process and equal protection regarding pro se litigants. Because youe all doing your ipods, computer games and not paying attention: there will come a time where someone like the Nazi officer in the film chindler List?says ?{paraphrase} The Jews came into our land took over our institutions our way of life our culture, from this day on ?it never happened.

Hence those rights never happened.

Step 1 was Herr McCain, the white haired guy that was a POW in Viet Nam doing away with damage actions. Putting a cap on them &c &c. Like Mr. Slatan recently commented, if you can get a million dollars in damages no social parasitic liar is going to take your case. Ironically it seems the Libertarians are on the same kick. In short if youe rich and you hurt somebody you merely negotiate as to how much you have to pay in order to enjoy the perpetration of mayhem or whatever. And thus,

Step 2 was prosecutorial immunity and discretion ?no one in charge of enforcing the law has to, if youe injured in fact, sue in civil court

And what does this amount to? If government or a private entity wants to hurt you the amount they might have to pay has already been limited. This way they can make a value judgment ?e.g., can I afford to hurt this guy for $100 grand? The trend now with Judges like Herr Rose (NYS 6^th District 3^rd Dept) is to award no damages at all. So if someone in the government or someone with juice wants to hurt you and you can represent yourself, your only choice will be to rent a liar under the thumb of someone like Herr Rose. Rose dismisses your case, youe out $5,000.00 or whatever social parasitic liars are charging poor people these dayz for bogus civil litigation ?viz., they hold your hand after taking a dive and say est assured you made them pay for their defence?part of which you may end up paying for anyway and the injustice and injury goes with impunity, anyway. Government doesn pay, you do. Then what recourse have you? Oh boy I mad I going to vote for some politician that will pass a law that Judges like Herr Rose will say fuck you to.

So these are the sorts of things your representatives spend their time creating, all of which is antithet to fairness and justice, and merely deals with mob rule.

 The solution is the rule of law.

It all comes down to a matter of choices and personal challenges ?viz., which ones do you take up and which ones do you walk away from.

The reason the US of A is a failure and really has become nothing more than a big company store or a stockade filled with consumers for the private sector to ruthlessly exploit is because people refuse to learn the law or more importantly he reason of the law?/P>

Money and fucking really isn the answer but right now that what everything is geared towards. The Conservatives through Heterosexual marriage; and the only alternative allowed are these white guyz from the Confederacy registered as Democratics saying give m a little slack and leeway, but if they get outta line wel snap that collar ound their neck just as hard as you do. If they convince Conservative followers they mean it, then they get elected to the White House ?code word e need change?

All you have to do is watch C-Span to get the drift, observe how people in government office act towards you and treat you. This is all most people know and all that they base their decisions on.

But once you learn and understand the law and compare it to how these people behave, what they do &c then you realize what utterly worthless shmucks and parasites they all are.

Essentially what they want and do is so much in conflict with the rule of law they have to suspend it, otherwise they can operate. They don know how.

What do you do about it? I not your leader. So the first thing you have to decide is whether you want to be a free individual or a subject; the monolith wants you to be the latter and it the easiest way to go. Trillions have been spent convincing you already.