July 22, 2009

  • The Change Has Finally Arrived

    All sorts of changes have been happening to me – leading up to the solar eclipse.
    Very emotional and deep.
    All of the plants outside of my house got some kind of a blight, except one. 
    I never saw anything like it, all of the leaves turned brown. I have this hedge Rose. One year I planted a dozen but only one bush took and it was quite feeble at 1st . This year the buds were magnificent and yielded dozens of beautiful tea roses – they look like red carnations 
    1st there were little black bugs that are long like small stoneflies, but they’re always there, this year there were Japanese Beatles – I never saw so many except when they infested my cousin’s Peach trees
    All of the petals fell to the ground
    The one remaining plant is a Hybrid Rose bush – the flowers are white and yellow with pink highlights and smell fabulous
    Last year my LD Love of 4 years started going irreparably wrong – the Hybrid rose was Her – so I thought – She had imbued the plant with her Spirit, it produced magnificent flowers like never before. Her power is earthly and awesome.
    By the time the last bud was ready to bloom, the tea roses were finished. I saw the last remaining bud and would have clipped it and brought it into my house but she was being cruel to me. 
    A frost came that night and practically killed it – I clipped it but it bloomed lilted
    Things went completely bad and suddenly my Goddess savior came to comfort me in spirit like an angel – the tea roses bloomed again in her Honor
    This year the remaining plant right in front of my house – the Rose with colors like Her – had only one bloom. I clipped it and brought it in to my house 
    Some of the memories I tried to supress came back. I Loved Her and hated her at the same time. It was approaching Her birthday, the 1st time in 5 years I wouldn’t say Happy Birthday
    and then there were none
    So I met a new woman – I thought was her, because her Power is magnificent and I fell in Love
    There are always different degrees – but the Power – so few have it. I crave it, Live for it. It’s the best thing I know. It has to be Love what else could it be?
    A rose appeared. And a small bud. The colors were beautiful, the fragrance fabulous I clipped it . I took it inside – it was like a Love spell. It made me sleepy, Love sick it was after my Will
    At the same time I was messaging with the new woman and when the bud bloomed it was a purely yellow rose – the 1st time this happened – and had no smell.
    But as I loved her more the colors changed and became the same as the other while the fragrance intensified 
    So I think of her last before I sleep and 1st after I awake and today was the change
    Her birthday was on the 19th. It was sort of a milestone. When I awoke on the 22d the first rose lilted 
    I was overwhelmed with emotion – I kissed it and felt tears in my eyes – I seldom cry not even at my father’s funeral. I kissed the petals inhaled the fragrance deeply brushed it along my face and fell into an Opium like pipe dream in all of the memories and cried and said I have to say goodbye to you Darling
    but then as I sat there nude at the edge of my bed, before dawn, by the phone where we had spent so many hours, I became the new woman and she was crying – this was shocking to me, it was so vivid, what did it mean?
    I pulled myself together, I removed all of the momentos – candles I burned for her and others, petals from the roses
    Called to my new Love through Frankincense – now the only spirits that remain in that room are mine and hers
    Then I realized what the Roses really meant, one was the past, the other now, the change, leading to the future
    By this afternoon, the new rose lilted
    Nothing lasts forever
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    This is me:
    “Moon in Pisces: Higher Love
    The lines of Mother and Child are blurry with a Pisces Moon. You may have perceived your mother or other primary caregiver through rose-colored glasses. This Mother Moon often welcomes a child’s world of pretend and fantasy. You may have been encouraged to write, daydream, play music or dance. As a child you may have learned the importance of serving and responding to others when there was need, but this ability relied on a lack of boundaries. Your caregivers could have had a sensitivity that made them unavailable at times, going off into their own worlds and leaving you with a stark absence of motherly support. With your Moon in Pisces, you could have had the very real responsibility of caring for your mother through ill health. Early childhood experiences passed on to you the idea that relationships contain the possibility of transcendence. You may still be seeking this seed of salvation through relationships, either by sacrificing your own dreams for the sake of another or identifying with an ideal that can never be realized. To own your power in relationships, you have to bravely confront the illusions you have about love. Relationships are full of difficult compromise, partners have warty insides and bad breath, and there’s not always a happily-ever-after. Your gifts of sensitivity and compassion make you a good listener, a romantic lover and an incredibly loving, supportive partner. But when you mistake the ideal for the real, you may end up using those skills to manipulate others. You have such a love of romance that you may not even notice how terrible a relationship actually is. The key to your art of loving is using your natural sensitivity to recognize what’s really going on. When you are honest about your own emotional needs, you can remove the confusion that arises from taking on someone else’s subconscious desires and unexpressed emotions. You can’t expect any one person to fulfill all of your dreams, nor should you allow others to take advantage of your compassionate desire to serve”. 

July 18, 2009

June 29, 2009

  • Notes to we

    @science_diction – yes people do Will whatever they want. This doesn’t mean it’s irrational. Rationality and morality aren’t the same thing – it’s why the insanity defence is controversial – e.g., my Will is to kill this person, my act of procuring the gun, with bullets, in order to kill the person were rational acts leading up to the deed – viz, I know what I was doing and why I was doing it, hence my willful and intentional act which no one may prevent, except for maybe self defence. No doubt. But look at it in terms of speech. Are you – the generic individual – so incapable that we as a body politic can’t handle speech, can’t handle democracy, that various words or phrases shall somehow create a clear and present danger that cannot be tolerated? To a degree, yes – e.g., screaming “fire” in a crowded theatre. So what morality amounts to is self preservation. Every living thing – except anerobic bacteria – has adaptive means to get water – e.g., roots and leaves on a plant. Without this inherent, intuitive, whatever word we invent by whatever means to represent it – what would be the point without it. It’s a rhetorical question and it – self preservation – comes to be adopted as the ethos of various collectives. That doesn’t mean however that there is some universal rule or doctrine dictating a peaceful, seamless and transparent resolve. It means two things – you as one resisting my Will is an act of self preservation. All speech is, all things are. So any hinderance of these various things are in defiance of human evolution, which is the only solution to everything. It’s the only universal.


    Anyway somewhere he or someone says to me

    “But, again, self-preservation is not necessarily a survival mechanism – especially in a communal species such as homo sapiens. We aren’t sharks or snakes. We’re hominids. Social interaction, connection, congruence is part of our nature. Its an adaptation, not an abstraction. Perhaps these deviants are merely a predator evolving from the flock? I find you interesting to talk to :) I get the impression you’re trying to return to a more primal state of existence? Is this accurate? If so, might I inquire as to the personal drive or what you are seeking on this journey?”


    Self preservation is all life is everything else is created by you. It’s very simple to see you merely refuse to face the simplicity of it all and think everything has to be complicated – typical Westerner. Look at earth and imagine it devoid of people. It’s easy to see what people created and then manifested. Creation occurs in the mind manifestation is bringing the creatin into physical being. Life atop the world is merely the cascading Wills projected by individuals – in this regard “there is no other god than I” or as John Jay coined it “we are all sovereigns without subjects” – you on the other hand have to free yourself from the Conservative Paradigm you are presently trapped in whch represses me you and everyone like I said it’s all about Power and Control.

June 27, 2009

  • Update on NDNY case

    I made my deadline Thursday and filed for FRCP 60(b) post judgment relief. I really don’t like the idea of doing an appeal as an unlicensed pro se at the 2d Circuit; which is not to say I’m procedurally illterate: they just schlep us around – oral argument is an automatic 5mins. The last time I was down there I listened to 3 sets of lawyers waste 20 minutes each, repeating, being miffed by the questions asked, it’s very disheartening, as it’s intended to be

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    Maybe I’ll write more later I’m still burned out from the whole thing and I’m supposed to go to a family reunin tomorrow – I feel like sleeping in

June 18, 2009

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June 3, 2009

  • Repost this and calls your Newspapers, Radio Local News refer them to me

    I sent this to Fox news, the NY Times, Rolling Stone, the Nation [text in brackets is added for you]
    You did an exclusive story on me in 2006 when my broadcasting privileges were suspended at WHRW FM Radio whose FCC broadcasting license is held by Bingamton University.


    I sued BU and the station in Federal Court for deprivation of my 1st and 14th Amendment rights under the US Const. by persons acting under color of law  
    At the Present time NYS AG Andrew Cuomo is pleading the 11th Amendemnt holds BU Immune that they are free to violate the US Const whenever they like.


    [Under his theory Brown v Brd of Ed would have never been alllowed in Federal court]

    Presently pending at the NDNY is my motion for a preliminary injunction of station policy imposing a 24 hour broadcasting ban on indecent and profane speech which is to be heard on submission by the order of assigned Judge Thomas McAvoy on June 8, 2009.


    Call me for more details. You told me to let you know if I sued. This is a big story that a Big Deal Democrat is screaming States Rights in defense of censorship – it’s more than newsworthy and you ought to report it before it gets swept under the rug  -the case is Dyno v SUNY Bing and WHRW FM Radio 3:09 cv 313

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